Dear Diary; Creativity in Motion

In large and small ways, in all ways…

Seeking to have something or be someone or do something important – or simply the desire that things be different than they are (even the weather!) – directs the course of most human existence…

When I have a car, a house, the new dress, the table the chairs those beautiful paintings – when the sun comes out –  I will feel happy, I will be at ease…

For awhile.

When I am rich, when I get a better job, top marks for my exam, a faster running time, become a famous musician, publish my novel and sell millions of copies, enjoy perfect clement weather at all times, I will feel content

For awhile.

It’s just that ‘they’ – anything outside us – cannot intrinsically lead us to pure joy…

And it isn’t the ‘things’ or ‘the successes’ that are vexatious to the spirit

It is the attachment to them, and the identification with them.

It is often because where has desire come from is not from our truest desire, but from our programming and conditioning…

We haven’t been going with the flow of life…

Instead attached to the oughts and the should of life, which is often accompanied by fear of not achieving or having what we want

Many people create back to front… They believe that when they have certain things, they will be able to do more and so be happy…

Whereas the truth is that when we relax deeply into being who we truly are, and do whatever we are lead to do from this place, then what we create and have is for our ultimate joy.

When we go with the flow, and hold less tightly to our dreams, then there is no struggle…

The fun of living, of being in a body, enjoying the creativity of consciousness unfolds with apparent effortlessness, even if we are working many hours on our project…

The ‘back to front’ way often ultimately creates tension and even misery, as well as feeling of envy of others if what we want doesn’t arrive; and the feeling of excitement and safety in resting in the bosom of success when it does; even an enjoyment of the adulation (and envy often) of others, can be swiftly followed by fear of loss.

But – when we know who we truly are, when we relax deeply and connect with our essence – when we are able to truly be our selves – and when we take action from this place…

Then we discover that the things we create and ‘have’ do bring joy, as they have been created from joy; from our conscious self…

From the I that witnesses it all; that watches as we journey. The I that knows we are unhappy or happy lost or found… The I that never says you are not good enough or the I that doesn’t know what being proud of you is… Who is that I?

The I beyond the I as we know it.

The I we I dentify with, our personality is not always our true essence

Clarity, silence, pure love, infinite awareness – this is who we are…

Our true nature, always there

We do not have to find who we are

We must simply let go of who we are not

Our essence, our true nature is already here

Now

And when we create from this place, we have already let go, we are going towards what we desire without attachment.

When we follow our bliss, then whatever we create is always in the now.

There is no past to be proud of, or a future destination that will make us immortal.

In the now our expression flows…

There is no ego attachment…

The only commitment

To be here enjoying the flow of creativity within us

Being ourselves in motion in our own true expression

Whatever that truly is

Now