Dear Diary; Know Thyself

And so we living in a New Year… To anyone who will listen I am singing the song by the band ‘The Who’ from their album ‘Tommy’….

‘Got a feeling ‘Twenty one’ is going to be a good year, especially if you and me see it in together’

The story of Tommy is relevant to us all as we journey through the years… Tommy’s life represents our separation from our real self to believing in the illusory self that we show to the world… But this created self can end up becoming our teacher as we strip back the layers to become aware, and know once more who we truly are…

And come to know ourselves

‘Know Thyself’

Our life is a flash in the enormity of existence, and we are a spark of energy that burns here as a physical incarnation for a short while…
But while we are alight, we have the opportunity to burn brightly.
To integrate and burn away all the stuff within us that is preventing us remembering who we truly are.

‘Know thyself…’

My father often said this to us children while we were growing up.
‘Know thyself darling…’

He was the perfect energy for me to stretch my emotional muscles against…

When I was thirty three years old, I was making life choices and behaving in ways that were part of my own discovery, but that didn’t fit his moral code… He asked that I go and see him, because he wanted to talk to me about ‘my morals and my integrity…’
I didn’t go…! Anger had flashed through me as his request – but Instead we talked on the phone for two hours and I shared more of myself and my life with him… 

It was a good conversation, one of the best I had ever had with him…

By now I reckoned that I knew myself better than I believed he knew me…

Three months later I did go to see him.

We lunched together on his birthday and during the course of our time together he said to me…
‘Darling, I think you are finding yourself….’

And so the very person we might think is crushing us, or disapproving of us, or misunderstanding us, can in truth be the very person who offers us the opportunity for growth, to go within and discover who we truly are.

This land is a make believe land, that we are making up as we go.

Our energy is creating our experience, and as we are in a paradigm of polarity… So if there is any dark in the world that we do not like, that affects us and we react to, whether that is in our own immediate circles, or globally, then our responsibility to to seek where this darkness is within us and own it and bring it forth into the light… 

To be whole we must embrace all that we hide in the shadows… Integrate it, and bring it forth, so that transforms rather than destroys.

This applies to our hidden ‘gold’ too… Sometimes we might react to light in the world, because it is within us, but not yet integrated… Our ‘work’ is to be conscious at all times of the importance of owning our own shadow…

It is only when we have owned/cleared our own shadow, both light and dark, that we can truly experience the consciousness from which we are all ‘born’

And know ourselves…

Light and dark are the polarity in the world we inhabit, a place where we can experience our energy because we are in a human body.

In integrating and clearing our energy, we will find our true self… We will discover ourselves in the silence between thought and in the still point in our breath.
We are so much more than anything we might define ourselves by now, whether that be in light or dark terms…

Know thyself