Let love and light shine from my heart
And as I run
Let me become
So that others can see it
And find it for themselves.
This was a prayer I wrote to myself many years ago; a poem of my dream; my wish to run free.
The me below that me, ran to express; to paint the picture of my soul in each step
I knew that the only thing that mattered to me was to clear the pain, the places where I had separated from my self – from me; the true me – below the me that identified with being a fast runner, who sought the love and approval ‘out there’, through the chimera of success
To express freedom
To express love
I knew that all that mattered was to keep ‘wiping the mirror until there was no mirror to wipe’.
So that freedom and joy were in every running step.
I also knew that where I was trapped in the cycle of attachment to outcome; to the chimera of winning being important.
I knew this meant that I was not clear of the treadmill I was on.
There was more wiping of the mirror to be done.
I also knew that my running journey shone a light for me on the path ahead, and reflected straight back onto me…
This light guided me to the next step and the next… The joyous expression of my soul in motion; but it shone right onto my pain too.
My running step was both my salvation and my nemesis.
And many years later, I read this poem now; this prayer to the future me.
And I find the future me is here.
She runs, her feet bare, each step an adventure (if sometimes an ouchie one! )
I am more me
I am more free
I have become
As I run.