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The rain in Spain has been biblical in its nature!

I looked up the meaning of ‘Biblical rain’ and this is what I found…

The incessant rain in the bible during forty days and forty nights, happened on the 17th day of the 2nd month in the 600th year of Noah’s life!

It was said to represent ‘God’s provision, blessing and spiritual renewal.’

That feels a good thing for the rain to represent.

If I came to Spain for sun, I have another think coming in these next couple of weeks 🙂

And it has been incessant – the sound of it sloshing over everything, over the rooftops of the houses and the streets and the beaches, taking with it all that was stuck and clinging.

Washing everything clean, bringing renewal.

The rain soaking into the land, that drinks it in with pleasure, the trees, the plants – the planet drinking it’s freshness and its wetness.

God’s provision!

And from comfort and dry indoors we watch it run down the window panes, splash onto the ground and we decide not to leave the building.

I am here in Spain to work and to enjoy some winter sun 🙂
Some of my clients have booked in for some intensive work with me, and maybe they too hoped for some winter sun!

But we have rain.

And so we didn’t leave the building, she and me!
It was an opportunity to simply be with what was.

Because, when we rely on the external to bring us happiness, it can be unreliable!
But when we accept what is, we are free to fully appreciate each moment, rainy or otherwise.

And we took this opportunity to allow the unfolding of the day, to journey inwards when journeying outwards would only result in getting soaked to the skin!

This is the blessing.

To learn to truly be with what is.

Now.

Now isn’t a moment in time on a timeline, nor placed in any location.

The now that is now, eternal.

The now within us always.

The timeless now, beyond anything the mind can fathom.

Pure awareness.

It’s funny really, when I think of how many words I write about my life, when I do the same thing.

Day after day

Everything the same

I run, I write, I spend time with Anadi, I work with my clients

And I drink coffee, too…

And when I am resting, I don’t really do anything.

I don’t watch television, I don’t even listen to music ( I used to when I had a car; in the car!)

When the theatres and cinemas are open, and the restaurants too…I enjoy those things.

But,

I like doing nothing, no thing at all

I like silence, to be silent, no talking, no sound around me

I like being alone

I like being

Alone

We are all alone really and truly, we came into this incarnation alone and we leave alone.

I remember reading the words of Rumi, about twenty years ago, I was forty one years old…

‘Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing there is a field. I’ll meet you there. When the soul lies down in that grass the world is too full to talk about. Ideas, language, even the phrase ‘each other’ doesn’t make any sense’.

And I didn’t like the idea of ‘each other’ not making any sense then.

I felt a slight discomfort, a feeling of distress…

‘Each other’ having been my lifelong quest, love, togetherness – each other.

But I felt the truth of the words.

And so I knew there was more work to be done…

More journeying

To learn to be alone

And to know that field

To lie down in it and be free, to understand that ideas and language are just that, ideas and language and that the world is too full to talk about.

And so I make another cup of coffee and sit silently, sipping the black liquid, a place of meditation for me for so many years.

And I let go

Of all the pressure to do more, to be more, to have more.

And I understand in each sip, the one realisation

The years and years and years of seeking, distill into now…

One sip, one moment

Now

This is all it takes, now, and now, and now

Our realisation, our freedom. all arise in an instant

Now

We are all free

We simply need to know this, see this

And let go

Now

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‘The Rain in Spain’

Dear Dairy; Let go, Now