Dear Diary; Be Aware and Learn to Clear

I was running along the road towards Chelsea Bridge on my way to run around Battersea Park… Ahead of me a woman skipped along childlike and free; she skipped she jumped and occasionally she ran a bit too.

The scene was joyous and fun, her energy uplifting and light…

I caught up with her at the traffic lights… ‘That was so joyous to witness’ I said to her as we stood side by side waiting for the lights to change ‘Your energy is of a child having fun’…’ She laughed, and then turning to me she said ‘But look at you – you’re ageless…’

Two women with an added time on the planet of circa 110 years (I would guess) with the magical child within alive and well, and enjoying running jumping and skipping along the road at 8’o clock on a Wednesday morning.

The only 8’o clock ever to be witnessed on that particular Wednesday, never again to occur – gone in a flash – every moment gone, the future now the past…

So I lived that moment as the clock ticked the time away, and soon it was 8.15am on that same unique particular Wednesday morning… And I was in another paradigm, another world, meeting Anadi on the grass by the trees where the parakeets swoop and squawk.

We played on the grass together – he and I – the organised formalised fun of our circuit, which sometimes I enjoy hating, burpees for instance; I get great pleasure hating burpees! 

But they never hate me back – true love – however much I hate them, they never take it personally…

Loving life is a choice; Loving is a choice…

In each moment we do have a choice to recognise the feelings, the pain, the thoughts that arise… To be aware, and to learn to clear – to learn to look towards joy rather than pain.

So often we are used to pain, the cycle of feelings… Do we feel angry with someone, hurt by someone, eternally frustrated and annoyed with someone…?

It can be a revelation – or we can resist recognising – that the person who we believe to be the perpetrator of our pain, our anger, our hurt our frustration is just the object that we are projecting the pain within us onto…

And of course this only perpetuates this pain and around it goes again, feeding the inner cauldron of toil and trouble.

Anger is a curved sword, but so are all the negative emotions we project onto another person or a situation…

With awareness we can instead start to recognise these feelings as they arise – and choose to learn to clear them, to choose different thoughts and so to change our lives… Instead of cycling around and around we can choose to chase our joy…

To skip and jump along the street instead of dragging our heels and our heavy hearts…

To commit to healing our inner state rather than projecting and perpetuating.

To choose to love hating burpees and have fun doing so!